[cherokee]

I echo what has been said already about seeking medical help as soon as possible for a more precise diagnosis, I think its also very brave to come on here and open up about it.

I would think that is taking the first step to recovery.(as with drink , drugs, gambling etc)

Being able to openly express how you are feeling on an open forum is a very brave thing to do. and I think that you sound desperate to get yourself back on track as opposed sitting back and feeling sorry for yourself.

I for one have full admiration for you and think you should get yourself off to the docs asap .
Good luck and I am looking foward to reading the post that tells us that life is beginnig to look much brighter.