SHAMED Kerry Katona was back bingeing on MORE cocaine within minutes of discovering the News of the World was exposing her lies in our shock snorting video.
Realising her ludicrous denials would no longer wash, the reality TV star sniffed up line after line of the Class A drug and wept: "I've lost everything. I'm going to lose my kids - the lot!"
Telling how the distraught 28-year-old mum-of-four made straight for her coke stash, our inside source said: "It's unbelievable, but she was still taking cocaine to try to numb the pain, even after she was rumbled. All she wanted to do was get completely out of her mind.
"She was crying and saying she was going to lose her advert contract with Iceland and was terrified her ex, Brian McFadden, would get custody of their daughters Molly and Lilly-Sue.
"And she kept repeating how social services would take away her youngest two, Heidi and Max. But never, at any stage, did she say she was actually going to DO something about her problem and STOP taking the cocaine.
"It was the opposite, she was just wanting to get more and more drugs to get wasted. She was up all night Saturday (after the News of the World told her about the video) and couldn't string a sentence together by Sunday lunchtime, she was a total mess.
"And her husband Mark kept whining over and over, 'We've lost the ------- lot, Kez!' And he was taking cocaine, too. He's no better than her."
Yesterday Kerry admitted publicly to her fears of losing her kids and confessed: "I've let my children down. I'm so sorry and so ashamed. I know I let everyone down - my fans, my family and people I work with."
She tried to write off her latest cocaine shame as "a moment of weakness" brought on by Mark romping with strippers in Majorca. "I did it because I was very unhappy at the time and thought it might make me feel better about myself," she added.
Kerry was speaking on her return from Tenerife - where she fled after our story. She had planned the trip with two paparazzi pals to set up pictures of her romping with another man - paying Mark back for groping strippers in a Majorca nightclub.
But she quickly realised the trip would help her sidestep Cheshire drugs cops and social services who were all eager to quiz her.
Bankrupt Kerry changed her mock photo-shoot plans so her mates would take some money-spinning topless shots PLUS "happy family" good- parent snaps of her with the three eldest kids - Molly, seven, Lilly-Sue, six, and Heidi, two. Mark was invited along at the last minute.
But by the time they flew back to Manchester Airport on Friday night the "united front" plan was in tatters after a string of screaming rows.
Now cops and social workers are expected to come knocking at Kerry's door in Wilmslow, Cheshire, tomorrow. The play-acting started last Tuesday morning when Mark flew out to join Kerry with his seven-year-old daughter Keeley from a previous relationship. Youngest child Max, one, stayed home with the nanny.
Kerry had already checked into the £185-a-night Dream Gran Tacande Hotel, with a girl friend and the paparazzi in adjoining rooms. She met Mark and Keeley at the airport and carefully posed pictures of her sobbing on his knee were taken.
Our source said: "Kerry had her engagement and wedding ring back on her finger but it was clear they're not happy. They barely spoke to each other out there and. Kerry barely spent any time with the children, unless a camera was turned on her.
"For the majority of the trip to the Canaries, Kerry acted like a shocking parent. She even sent the kids to have dinner with the photographers while she sat in her room. You'd think after what she's done, and the possibility her kids could be taken from her, that she'd want to spend every precious moment she could with them."
At 11pm on Tuesday fellow guests could hear Kerry and Mark screaming at each other from their second floor bedroom. Our source said: "I heard Kerry shouting at Heidi to 'shut up' then she and Mark were rowing so loudly people in the restaurant downstairs could hear them."
On Wednesday morning Kerry and Mark didn't even surface to take the children to breakfast.
Our source added: "While Kerry posed on the beach for tacky pictures poor Molly was crying by the pool because she was getting so sunburnt."
That evening there was more shouting with Kerry bawling at the kids: "What's wrong with you? You're on holiday, you should be having a good time!" Finally on Wednesday night Kerry, Mark and the children ate together - just long enough for the photographers to take some shots.
Kerry walked out of the restaurant 20 minutes before everybody else and stormed back to the hotel. Our source said: "She looked furious. She took Molly with her. I think they stopped off at the pharmacy to finally get some cream for the poor child.
"Back at the hotel Kerry and Mark had another screaming match. About 10pm they all emerged to go to a magic show in the hotel. Kerry looked bored out of her mind, yawning and putting her head on the table. She and Mark didn't utter a word to each other.
"The only time they showed any affection was when they had their picture taken. Next morning at the pool Molly did at last have lots of cream put on her skin, and later they put Mark's big T-shirt on her to protect her.
"On Thursday night Kerry went to the hotel entertainment show with the kids again. But she and Mark kept nipping back to the room, and then she'd return sniffing and wiping her nose.
"That night they actually looked like they were genuinely having a good time, drinking pints and clapping along to the music - until Kerry went berserk because another guest took a picture of her She immediately sent over her friends to threaten the people and demand their cameras. She was desperate to carefully control what people could see of her on holiday, trying to portray a squeaky clean image with her pap photos. She didn't want to be seen drinking and looking wasted."
After flying home to Britain on Friday, Kerry's top priority was said to be finding out who gave us the video. She and Mark spent hours compiling a list of suspects.
Our source said: "It comes to something when you need to draw up lists of people in your home and could have seen you taking cocaine."
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You've got to feel sorry for any child having such feckless people as parents.